my nadir phase

halo, this is saturday and i don't know what to do, it's so many problem this saturday, 1st june...damn
shit, crap, bastard -_-
today too many problem in my life,
i don;t know how to act, it's jailing me.
feel so isolated..
need to go need ice cream, need someone to talk.
what i hope, what i want, what i dreamed, not going well,
it going in revert,
and it's really frustrated me.
what i write, what i said, always happend in revert, and it's really really makes me crazy


FRUSTRATED..
FRUSTRATED..

as my friend said, i am changing little then i'm change again,
slow but sure i will totally changed,
be the audra diaz in different version, in bad version
i meant,, oh god why, why this is happened to me -_-

pleaseeee. pleasee give mee more..
give me new hope, new dreams to catch..
so i have the motivation
my motivation before it, before everything
before this fucking worse phase..
it's bad, i feel so bad, i don't know how to act, i don't know who to share ,
feel so lonely..
i have many friends here but i still feel so lonely, i have my family here, but it's really lonely,
oh god...maybe i really really very very need you..
oh god give me your answer,

maybe comment on this post ?

oh i'm crazy sorry, love you god :*